Christ in Me, Myung Sook Lee

I meet with the church in Atlanta. The relationship between God and I began through a summer Bible school at a denomination in my village when I was in the fifth grade. In a revival service I was impressed by God's deep love and I received God and was saved in the seventh grade. But though I had believed in God and went to church during some decades, I was not satisfied at all inwardly. I loved God, I was eager to go to church, I offered tithes, and I served a lot. But nothing could satisfy me. I felt that something was missing. I was troubled with that. Believers around me advised me to be filled with the Holy Spirit. So I attended a revival service, in which I prayed while fasting and prayed at dawn being eager to be filled with the Holy Spirit. But it was only during that time that I felt filled. My living day by day was the same as before.

Hallelujah! By the Lord's mercy, when I attended meeting in the home of Korean speaking believers in the church in Atlanta by chance, I realized that there was something in this church. I continually attended meetings. I realized that I didn't know a lot of truth. However, I was nourished and learned things from the believers. I was being filled little by little, and I was satisfied with that. For almost a year, I just attended a meeting. Eventually by the grace of the Lord and a lot of prayer, I began to attend church meetings and spend more time fellowshipping with the believers in the church. I have been living this way for five years. During this time, I have learned to contact the Lord in my spirit and to enjoy and experience Him.

Now I realize that to be filled with the Holy Spirit is something I cannot receive from heaven by a bunch of prayer, but from Christ by opening my heart to Him that He may dwell in my being, strengthen into the inner man, be enlarged and may expanded in my being, and saturate my whole being with Himself. Now I don't pray to be filled with the Holy Spirit anymore. I confess that there is a satisfaction deep within me whenever I call upon the name of the Lord Jesus and pay attention to Christ in me by turning my mind to my spirit (Romans 10:12; 8:6). I love Christ in me. Nobody can take Him away from me. And I appreciate that I can enjoy and experience all the riches of Him Colossians 1:27).